Tuesday, October 19

Somber beginning to MEA weekend

This morning I received the news that my father died in Arizona after spending the weekend in ICU. It's not a surprising bit of news but I have to admit that it is a piece of news that sent me into a spiral. I haven't been close to my father and I haven't actually seen my father in quite a few years. As much as I struggled with trying to contact him again after the many years of trying and trying and trying just that. I knew I had to try it one more time. 

I made that call last Friday in hopes of being able to speak to him on the phone, hear his voice for the first time in over 8 years and share my successes with him one last time. But, I wasn't able to speak to him. Don't get me wrong. I've tried many times before, just wanting to let him know that I'm happy with where I am. I figured he'd enjoy knowing that I was married, own a home and looking to have children.

This is where I stand. I made one last attempt and it didn't make it through. Now, there's no making that call. It just can't happen.