Thursday, August 21

Worth the Wait

I can't begin to say that "I can't remember my life before..." or "I can't imagine my life without.." my son. But I can say that it was most definitely the most rewarding wait in my lifetime. It seems like much longer than the 26 months than this journey has taken so far. The classes, paperwork, visits, emails, fingerprints and checks written are, for the most part, behind us as they relate to this journey. (Yes, I know that we'll be writing many more checks...many more!)

Max turned 1 month old today and looking back at the past 4+ weeks, I have to join the ranks of millions of parents before me that say "the time goes so fast." It seems like just a moment ago we held him in our arms for the first time and spent a couple of restless nights in the hospital trying to prove to the nurses that we are going to be the responsible, responsive parents we hope to be. 

But here we are, 31 days later, a few inches longer, a pound or more heavier (my best guess) and we're still trying to prove to ourselves that we are going to be the best parents we can be. The weight of each little decision, dash of formula, butt wipe consumed are compiling on the factors that will lead to his eventual success in this world. We can only hope that the decisions we're forced to make for him now are the ones that he'll love and respect us for years down the road.

Max and I spend our days together -- some of them seem longer than others. As we all do, Max has his fussier days and it seems as soon as I put him down to rest while I grab a bite to eat or pour another cup of coffee, he's blurping up or crying for some help for something or other...But I can honestly say that each of those days are just as gratifying as the calm, quiet days. I think it has to do with the fact that on fussier days -- we still come out smiling and happy at the end of the day. I can't help but be amazed at what must be going on in his body and mind each day as he either restfully conquers another day or vocally shares how difficult it is. Either way -- it's beautiful.


Wednesday, August 20


What an amazing video! This sheds a whole new light on this cause for me. I was at the point of thinking it was just a fashionable thing to do and "all the cool kids were doin' it." But this man's raw emotion speaks volumes... 

So my challenge to you isn't just to accept the #IceBucketChallenge and pass it on but to donate to the cause as well. Please. 

Now, go dump ice water on your head and go to to help the cause. #KissMyALS

I've been called out.... So I suppose you'll be seeing more soon. 


Monday, August 18

4 Weeks

Maximilian is growing amazingly fast. His Papi and I can't believe he has been with us for 4 weeks already. An amazing journey that we are so truly lucky to be on.
As he's chilling in my arms right now, he's holding his head up on his own. Still with some pretty jerky and spastic actions, but is holding it up.

Monday, August 11


I can't believe how quickly he's sprouting...every parent I've ever talked to has warned me about this.

Life and Death

The Sylva Boys took a trip north to visit more family yesterday. The itinerary included great grandma, great aunt, uncle, auntie and cousins. It was a fantastic afternoon and I'm very thankful to my brother and Katie for hosting us.

Great Grandma was thrilled to be able to meet Max while he's still so tiny and a promise to make more visits soon. I have to say, though, the smile on Great Aunt Rita's face truly made my day. To see her 92 year old face come alive with excitement at the sight of the newest addition to her family was a moment of pure joy, true happiness. We stayed and visited until her 11:45 slotted lunch time rolled around. During our visit, Max was flexing his sneezer diaphragm (as he does quite frequently) and Aunt Rita made the comment "When you sneeze, that's the closest you get to death." Though the rest of us in the room felt it bit morbid, there wasn't a voice in the room that chose to argue with her 92 years of experience. Grandma preferred to stick with her rationale for the sneezes which was that Max was growing.

The remainder of the afternoon was spent with my brother's beautiful family. The kids did amazingly around their new cousin though the energy level was quite high. There were a few moments we thought Addy was going to stream roll Max... usually right after she demanded that he remain covered with his blankie and then proceeded to throw it at him. Oh.... kids.

To each their own.